Among the Evergreens

Nothin' But the Dead and Dying

What little garden I had, is now gone, gone, gone

Roma Tomato

Cherry Tomato

Beans

Carrots

Even the Weeds

Autumn Centerpiece

Red Letter Day

Today I had the pleasure of meeting this lovely woman in IRL. We've been online friends through photography for about four years. Lisa is the person that encouraged me in macro photography and introduced me to geocaching. She has such good humor and a wonderful strength of character that just shines through.

Me with Lisa Dewane

To get up close and personal with this kind of positive energy was a pure pleasure!

Thank you so much, Lisa and Dennis, for going out of your way to have breakfast with me and Dale. I'm so glad that we only live a day apart, instead of half a country apart.

The Park at Mill River

Turning Over

Though this blog's the subtitle is Peek into the Window of my Soul, I haven't written much about my inner journey for quite a while. Usually, I allow my art, humor, and photography to speak for me. However, I am a writer as well. So today, I write.

Twenty-six  years ago on a late October afternoon, I left my first husband. I took my two babies in diapers and went to live in a woman's shelter. Scared. Anxious. Without a plan. Feeling like a complete failure. My marriage failed. My dreams failed. My career failed. Even with a college degree, the full-time job I eventually secured paid only $600 per month.

This afternoon, a quarter century after that life-changing day, I completed my Fearless Living course. What is designed to take readers one year to complete, took me six years. Slow and steady gets me where I need to go. I learned  much; I had so much to learn!

When I started Fearless Living, I was lost in the mental jumble that is the aftermath of a hypo-manic episode. That was quite a deep hole filled with self-doubts and shaky identity. I can now accept who I am because I finally know who I am. I no longer believe anyone else's definition of me - or accusation about me. I've done the hard internal work. It's been quite a journey.



Looking back at October of '87, I see that 30 year old single mom was already courageous. She just didn't know it.

She did have some confidence in her skills, but she didn't know quite how to demonstrate them effectively to others. She was a singer, but didn't have a voice. She could stand up for her kids, but was very wobbly when trying to stand up for herself.

She was generous in spirit - even to her ex who accused her of things that were simply not true.

Today, the 55 year old me is overflowing with gratitude. I thank the God that I've come to know, the Spirit of life and love, for guiding me to this new turning point.

I'm grateful for my husband Dale's steadfastness and humor that have have given me a rope to hold onto and a reason to hold on.

I'm grateful for the counseling help I received from Bonnie M, from AlAnon, and from Cathi M. They taught me to re-frame my life experiences in much the same way that I can re-frame a photo in my camera's viewfinder. It's the same subject matter, but from a different point of view. These counselors helped me understand my biological mental challenges so that I can work within my limitations to forge my own version of success.

I'm grateful for the Aura of Awesome, for the Gauntlettes, and for my other female friends who listen to me daily and share their lives with me. They are counselors of a different sort.

I'm grateful for authors who share their wisdom through the written word, especially the authors of The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People, Self Matters, Boundaries, What to Say When You Talk to Yourself, and Fearless Living. By taking my time and working through the exercises in these books deliberately, I've had many Ah-Ha! Moments. I've even learned that I can gain insight from a book that I didn't like at all.

I'm grateful to The Flylady, Marla Cilley. Her voice and essays wash over me in a firm-but-loving way. She encourages all us "flybabies" to get off our frannies and do something about our living situation, rather than allowing life challenges to run us over. Because of Flylady's decade of mentoring, I've become a better homemaker, a better mom and a better human. She is the living embodiment of her lessons in how to be kind to yourself and take care of yourself so that you can care for your family without burnout.

It's been quite a journey.

I am incredibly grateful to know that I am a charmed artist whose soul can sing - and can affect those in my circle of influence with light and joy.

Watercolor Maple

Playing with a watercolor filter in my editing program.

The Mighty Columbia

I never tire of the ride up the Columbia River

The scenic vistas

The massive windmills

The steep drop-offs on both sides if the river

The powerful water

Then there's the Freaky Forest, where fast-growing trees are grown plantation-style for their wood.

And the high desert farmlands of eastern Washington soak in the sun below the blue mountains.

Massive Mushrooms

We tried for one more cache on the GeoTour. It was hidden in the woods overlooking the ocean.

Unfortunately, night had fallen. It was too dark to search for our treasure unless we used a flashlight. Even then, footing was unsteady. We nearly tripped over this gargantuan mushroom.

It was freakishly large.

Oregon Dunes

Continuing our GeoTour, we stopped at the Oregon Dunes.

Wow! Are they massive!

The dune riders are daredevils!

I've never seen such impressive landforms before.

Another Waterfall

Near the cache at the Florence Best Western was this pretty man-made waterfall.

It's not nearly as grand as the natural falls at Sweet Creek, but it was a nice place to stop and rest for a bit.

Florence, Oregon

At the start of September, Dale and I visited Jodie in western Oregon. The three of us went on a geocaching tour. I've posted some photos already. Now it's time for more.

With a couple long hikes and several caches under our belt, we were glad to get into town and eat a hearty lunch. But where?

When in Florence, eat at Mo's! Good seafood, right on the water. We got a window seat ... and found an outlet so we could charge our phones.

The geobuddies were hungry, too.

Ultraviolet

I don't know that I've ever seen the violet in a rainbow before today. But for about one minute, I could see it in this rainbow. I'm glad I took the time to pull over to the curb and get out of my car.

Goodnight, Karl

While sitting in the drive-through lane at Panda Express, the sun rested for a moment on the tall grass and made it glow.

Karl Foerster

And just as quickly, it was gone.

Sweet Creek Falls - Part 2

I had some fun with my camera, taking these artsy shots of the falls.

Main Falls

Downstream Falls