I Have Confidence

Do you remember that song from The Sound of Music that Maria sings as she approaches her new job as governess?

I have confidence in sunshine
I have confidence in rain
I have confidence that spring will come again
Besides which, you see, I have confidence in me!

I used to walk to school, singing that song ... trying to build my own confidence.

I don't think it worked.

Oh, I have confidence in some of my talents and abilities, of course. But as a full-fledged human adult that believes she can make her way in this world and figure out solutions to her problems as she goes ... well, not so much. Yet, I constantly work at building my confidence.

Maybe I need to look at Sarah's recipe again:

• attitude
• experience
• wisdom
• optimism
• faith

Hmmmm. I've got plenty of all those things. Maybe it's the proportions that are off. My blend is not so aromatic. Or, maybe I'm just looking in a defective, curved mirror — you know, like the kind you see in fun houses. One makes you look tall and skinny; another makes you look short and rotund. I think I'm looking in a mirror that makes me look like a dust devil hit ... all rather swirly and cockeyed.

Time to get a new mirror. See myself for who I really am and know that the image I see is good enough.